The Torment of Unforgettable Memories

I never have any peace in my mind till now, since 1st of June.

The day that you gave me an unexpected "anniversary surprise".

My head is spinning all time.

Feeling tired but can't sleep most of the time.

Memories flooding in my mind.

Rushing towards like streams of wave.

As if flipping through a book page by page, reminding me of your past until what you have become now.

Tried many methods, yet pointless.

Often confused when pondering what I am suppose to do.

Throughout Kampar, everywhere I go, reminds me of you.

The whole area is tainted by your history.

In university, almost every sections of the place is tainted by your history.

Yet, you came to my hometown before.

There is no escape even in my own house as it is also tainted by your history.

Everywhere I can go reminds me of you.

Things you said ever since we been together is still very fresh in my mind.

Forcing myself to forget.

Is that a wise choice?

I tried.

It made me even more pain than usual.

I felt that these memories are too ridiculously to forget.

If such unforgettable memories were to applied in studies,

I would have beaten world class students at studies with minimal effort.

But sadly no.

The memories were applied in blurring and haunting me .

Why force yourself to forget about me while you still share strong feelings towards me?

Why do you want to do that to yourself?

Why can't we be what we supposed to be?

Why torture yourself not to love me while you still love me?

Why do have to sacrifice in this way?

Why do you want to torment us both?

Why is there so many Why's?!