Lover's Survey

I just completed my survey about relationships.

"The info regarding the survey was taken from groups of individual who have been through difficult times in relationships."

What I found out was, couples who are both 1st lovers tend to last longer than those who have already been through breakup/breakups before.

Why is that so?

I can't answer it but,

A lot of my friends have been together with their partner for many years, approximately 3 years or more since they got together. Within these years, countless arguments and dissatisfaction upon each other occurred between them until breakup has becoming imminent.

The amazing thing is, they are still together as happy couples.

Why?

Because they sat down calmly and compromised with each other regarding the many problems occured among themselves. They cared for each others feelings and the importance of their relationship.

Another case is that, a couple that has already separated from each other for 3 years but haven't broke up.

But they did broke up recently.

Few days later after the breakup, they were together again because the girl intended to give him a 2nd chance. Why?

Because she cared about his feelings. He doesn't want to end it just like that. The guy promised to change for the better.

This is an example of trust. " From my opinion, without it, doubts and confusion will take place. This tends to make the person think too much. Trust is one of the many essential factors required in relationships. "

In contrast,

Most 1st lovers are loyal whereas most non-1st lovers are the absolute opposite of 1st lovers.

What I found out was, most of the non-1st loves tend to breakup more often than usual.

The person who proposed the breakup would likely get a new substitute pretty quick.

That's how they accumulated the ascending numbers of ex-lover.

Why is that so again?

In my opinion, they are just selfish because they only care about their own happiness and does not bother whether the other partner lives or dies.

They tend to give silly and ridiculous reasons to push him/her away.

Why?

Because they do not have a clear valid and reasonable answer to call off a breakup.

Most excuses are just assumptions and disbelieving of the other partner(victim).

Moreover, they do not know what's the meaning of forgiveness as well.

As long as they themselves are happy with his/her choice, that's it. END OF STORY..

From the beginning, I thought I was the only rare case but to my surprise, it isn't.

That's how I came out with this survey results.

In conclusion, most non-1st lovers tend to be extremely naive and only believe that what they do are 100% correct. That's why they do not even bother to look back into the past whether their choices are right or wrong. They are so sure that, all will be fine and everyone is happy.

"What I think is, these kind of people are just like king's sending out his troops to war and proudly ensuring flawless victory at war. How much blood has spilled and all the citizen's sufferings caused by the war, he does not feel it and neither will he care about it at all because he is happily enjoying his moments in his palace. As long as he gets what he wanted then ok already. But what his expectation back-fired? That's how kings always get overthrown by others because they are just too naive in believing no one can stop them."

In addition, these non-1st lovers does not care about the scars left behind due to their own naive decisions because they do not care how people suffer from the impact of the breakup. They just assume " Aiya!! Get over with it la. Dun worry too much la. It's normal keh. Find new one lo. Not worth thinking too much d la, anyway, I won't come back one". Act as if nothing happened? Cakap saja besar la( Talk until so damn lun c)!! If it's that simple and normal, let me try doing that to you and see la!! SWT!!

They are happy because they get what they want and does not receive any negative impacts from it. That's why they could say such thing with outstanding pride and audacity. They will never know pain until they eat back their own medicine.

P/S : I'm not saying all non-1st lovers are like that, just that mostly are like that only. Also, not all 1st lovers are loyal to the max, still they are some who act like typical non-1st lovers. This survey is based on majority/large percentage(not fully 100%) groups of people. "Without trust, no relationship can withstand for long." Relationships often breakup when either of the partners starts to think something bukan-bukan because of disbelieving and doubts on the victim especially their capabilities of adjustments.

ERROR MESSAGE!!

Wishes that I made, the faith that I kept till now.

They actually came true in my dreams.

But, not in reality again.

What I think is, they are trying to convince me not to wake up forever.

Sweatness.

Anyway, wishes coming true in my dreams is not what I wished for on the 1st place.

I wanted it to occur in the physical world.

Maybe there were some technical error with the universe.

haha.

No matter what, I will still continue to focus all my thoughts and my faith on God, the universe, and also what I have wished for.

Hope it would answer me ASAP.

P/S : To those who does not know what I am talking, you can assume I'm just rambling or crapping or whatever. XD

The Secret

The Law of Attraction...

Step 1: Ask

Step 2: Answer

Step 3: Receive

What you get is what you expect.

The end results is due to what we perceive, either good or bad.

Everything is controlled by our thoughts.

We ask for what we want not by words but by through our thoughts(Step 1) where it is answered by the universe itself(Step 2).

The universe hears the request and reveals our end results only if faith is kept(Step 3).

Most things in this world abide to this law of attraction.

But in my notion, it's not.

Not everything abides it.

Do you think that if I want something, I will get it in the end? No matter what it is?

As to most readers, you know clearly what I desire and what this blog is meant for. So I'm not going to say that again.

So, if I keep my faith will I get back what I have already lost?

Something which is so inevitable?

The law didn't state that how long you need to keep up with the faith to receive what you asked for.

So when will I get my answer from the universe?

When I'm 25, 30, 40, 50, 60, 70 and so on?

DO I NEED TO WAIT THAT LONG?

If so, what's the point of all this then?

Because this is what I asked for since that day until now.

A year or more is what I asked for as well and not when I'm 25, 30, 40, 50, 70 and so on.

I will hold on to my faith in the future.

If things changes to what I asked for within a year or more, then maybe I will take back my own words that I've just said.

Else, I have to disagree with it.

Chances...

People said I am handsome. ( This is what people said and I 'm not boasting or whatever and if you want to laugh then go ahead. I'm not stopping you.)

I denied because I don't see any handsomeness in me at all.

Maybe there were just trying to cheer me up or praise me I don't know.

People also said I got a pretty heart.

But I said don't know because only others can see whether it's pretty or not.

Just like you cannot smell your own pheromone but others can.

No matter how pretty you're externally or internally, it's useless sometimes.

WHY?

If you are not given a chance in anything, you're still a piece of shit.

Because you basically can't do anything at all.

You're just like a crippled and frail old man who can't even move any limbs eventhough you have endless efforts in attempting to move them. Because the limbs are just dead, they are not influenced by the brain anymore.

WHY?

For example, you like to study and you got talent to study.

But your family is too poor to afford any further education.

But your lust for education dominated your self-control.

One day, you noticed your friend is also studying at one Uni you wanted to study in.

So you just attend classes from that day onwards.

Lecturers asked you, who are you? Why are you here?

You explained how much you love study, although the lecturers were touched by your words and willing to give you the chance to study here, still you can't.

WHY?

There are not the ones who determine whether you can study here or not.

It is the university who decides.

The university does not allow you to study here as you are not registered here.

Eventhough others give you chances but once the Uni said you are not eligible, you're gone.

Eventhough you can still continue to secretly study here but it's pointless because you can't take the final examination.

This is only wasting all your precious time just to temporary satisfy your so called lust.

In conclusion, it's pointless when you're not given a chance eventhough you are a genius.

So in reality, no matter how pretty you are externally and internally, if people do not appreciate who you are, you are just nothing in society.

Nothing in the sense that whatever you're trying to attempt, it will just end up with uncountable disappointments.

Another example, if you want to murder someone, you need to plan where to attempt.

If the victim found out that someone is trying to kill him/her from an unknown source, he/she will avoid from that targeted area.

In conclusion, the victim does not give the murderer any chances of attempts therefore, the murderer failed eventhough the murderer had put in weeks of effort to plan this attempt.

Everything is basically influenced by chances, just that we don't see it directly.

For me, I laid in so much hard efforts to change what I am for the greater good, for us and others.

For what?

But it ended pointless once again because I was not given the chance to prove so.

WHY?

Because the one that motivated me to change doesn't want to appreciate what I can do in the future.

Just some influences from open world and just by judging my past, they put a fullstop on me because they claimed I will never change. Worse is that they claimed they know me as much as my own parents know me.

Moreover,

My chances were rejected and denied, eventhough they have already been given.

Based on neutrality, do you think it's a righteous judgment?

Memorable Speech

This was what I got from the sermont yesterday.

When your neighbor threw one big bag of rubbish at your place.

What will you do?

Do you throw back or you help your neighbor to throw the rubbish to the thrash bin?

If you throw back, what will happen then?

Internal war occurs.

It will never end until at least one stops.

As a child of god, you should help your neighbor to throw as well, WHY?

Maybe because your neighbor is too busy and they put the rubbish in front of your house maybe because they want you to help them throw on their behalf.

They didn't inform you maybe because you weren't out there when they want to ask you to help them as they are too busy at the moment and afraid of disturbing you if they call you just for some rubbish.

This is only one of the possible reasons.

There maybe many.

We should think everything positive in whatever situations as we are unsure what's the real reason.

God is watching us.

War or Peace?

It's determined by our actions.

Think before you do and reflect after you've done.

Time To DIE!!!

Yesterday was dreaming.

Today?

I day-dream of fetching her to clinic and carried her on my back from her house where I parked the vehicle and back to my room.

That whole dream ate me an hour of my time.

Tomorrow I'll be having a test and I hardly read anything at all.

Once started reading I will day-dream about her all the sudden.

Haih....

I guess it's TIME TO DIE for me now.

P/S: Bear in mind that I'm not blaming anyone but myself ok? Anyone who wants to laugh at me, jeer at me and look down on me, FINE!! Go ahead I can't stop you. IF you want to spread this to your friends just to laugh on me? OK.. I'm fine with tat too. Because I don't only love my loved ones but to my enemies or whosoever as well.

The Incomprehensible Vision

Before I start, I would like to remind everyone who reads this entry, not to think too much and this entry has no intention on blaming anyone but me.

So don't get misunderstood. Thank you!!

It started like this,

Yesterday at 4 something in the morning, I dreamt of something.

Something special, something giving me temporal happiness or something to torture me?

I seriously can't comprehend it.

I still don't understand why is it until now I can still dream of her.

OMG!!!

I really can't control my own dreams, it's like as if it has a mind on its own.

Anyway,

I dreamt of her forgiving me, cried in front of me because I said something that touched her heart and also hugging me very tightly.

The dream ended with a kiss from her.

"An accurate final touch to the story indeed." (my opinion)

Right after it ended, I found myself lying on bed half-dead and the time was 12 something in the afternoon when I looked at the time displayed on my phone.

A short dream yet I felt so happy at that moment.

But sadly, that is not going to happen in reality anyway.

Well...

I know that's just an entertainment for me that's all, just like watching movie.

It won't last forever.

What happened next?

Just need to get back to the real world and face the facts.

No choice.

War or Peace?

War can be at anyplace, anytime and anywhere.

Why wage war between others?

It's because some people think he is right and some people think the other is more promising.

Birth of two parties occurred.

Both having the similar thoughts.

One thinks he is more right and the other thinks he is more right.

Therefore, they fire each other on sight.

To fight for what they believe is right.

Why can't people just put a table in the empty hall and sit down.

To compromise with each other, to reach an agreement where both parties agree.

But the world is not as it is, that simple.

Thought is one of the most powerful weapon in this world.

The way people perceive something.

To love, hate, sad, forget and etc.

Controlled by thoughts.

Furthermore,

The ability to create and destroy.

Alpha and Omega.

The beginning and the end.

Whether it is the end of the world or not.

We are to be blamed.

I am tired of fighting for the inevitable.

All I want is just some rest now.

Conflicts & Happiness

So many conflicts happening nowadays.

The class is so small yet so much drama. (from Angie)

Well, I think Hollywood should consider our talents.

Otherwise, we don't have to study already.

So damn stress.

Anyway,

Since your so happy with what you're doing now.

I don't really have much comment about you now.

I'm not going to force you to anything you don't like.

I already said that since the day we've been together until now.

I just hope you will realize what you're trying to do now.

I just hope you won't make the same mistakes that you repeated over and over again and proceed with it into the future.

That is to ensure that you won't end up with regrets.

And

To provide you permanent happiness.

I'm not saying you have to be with me only, in order to gain that permanent happiness.

I just wish you will learn how to make a wiser decision for your own happiness.

You have the choice to choose anyone you want to be with anytime, anywhere and anyplace.

There is no way stopping you from doing so, as I cannot earn your body, mind, heart and soul through force.

There is no happiness through forcing.

Updates!!!

I kinda understand their intentions right now.

Whatever they are progressing now.

Whatever the updates they made.

Whatever things they delete.

Whatever messages they show.

They are just trying to slim down my chances.

I feel sad for myself because it still couldn't break my loyalty.

They basically have no effects on my affection towards them.

Kinda heartbreaking yet couldn't forget.

Instead..

The memories became even harder to wipe out than before.

It sounds absurd but this is my natural reaction, just the same as our body reflexes. It's automatic and beyond my control.

I'm expecting more to come.

The more it comes, the more hurtful and sad I'll become.

Worse thing is I can't free myself from it because of natural reaction.

Then I guess I'll be staying in the torture chamber till the end of days.

Anyway,

Congratulations for planting more sadness in me.

I'm sure you're happy with it.

Good luck in hurting me.

Thank You!!