Everything I done for you.
Everything I sacrifice for you.
What for?
It's because I love you.
Why are willing to destroy the sweet memories we had together just in few days?
For the past 3 months, our love became so much deeper.
Not only that, we miss each other even more than before.
Now?
Just a couple of days you could say you forgotten everything about us?
You don't have anymore feelings towards me?
You also mentioned could we be friends again.
But seriously, are you really treating me as a friend or an enemy I wonder.
Do you actually understand what were my feelings when you said something like this?
Well, tell u one thing.
Do you still remember the last time I joked with you mentioning that i wanted to leave you?
Do you remember what was your emotions at that moment?
Right before I could tell you I was just joking, you instantly ran back to your room and cried till there is no tomorrow.
If I do not confess that I was just joking, you would thought I really meant it.
What really broke my heart was, you saying I looked like so called idiot and not even worthy to be your friend.
You know something.
I don't cry just to anyone and basically I never cried for ages.
Additionally, I never cried just for someone before.
You told me before that if I cried for you means I love you very much and you were so happy and glad that I'm so loyal to you. That was where our relationship began to flourish.
Now?
When I cried for you, I'm just a piece of shit to you right?
Or
Just a mentally retarded adult who has a mind of a kid who likes to cry like a baby?
Is that what you mean now?
Then what about you when you cried?
When you needed me the most I always try my best to be with you and console you whenever you are moody, sad and hurt.
When I needed you the most, where are you?
You left me, that's what it is.
You even said if I die, nobody will ever bother about it cause your not worth loving.
So, I'm just a piece of "shit" that even a dung beetle won't be attracted to?
I wonder do you treat me as a person or just a piece of "shit".
How can you be so cruel all the sudden?
Why do you want to dump our love away?
Why do you want to destroy our opportunity to live together in the future where it is only a matter of steps only.
Why do you want to act in front of me? Do you think that I don't know your acting in front of me?
What's your purpose?
What's your motive?
Are you helping me?
Are you hurting me?
Or is it someone else fell in love with you, wanted to erase your memories forcefully so that both of you could live and love each other happily ever after without doubts?
If you could really erase all our memories together, so what?
Is that true love?
What about me?
You don't need to care about other's feelings as well?
Do you think it's a selfish act?
Do you think that what you do is right?
Do you believe that god will close one eye and act as if nothing had happened, like you?
You always mention you understand and know what is love.
For me, I clearly doubt so.
When we became couples, I never had the intention on leaving you or seducing new girls like what most guys would do. I never even want to talk to people to don't like me to talk to. I was willing to change my lifestyle from hermit just to suit your lifestyle in the future. I stayed with you 24/7 in the room because I want to take care of you, don't want you to be lonely, work with you and love you. I know I did something wrong to you sometimes. But, I asked for your forgiveness and willing to change it because we learn from our mistakes so that in the future we won't repeat it again. I know it's my bad because I didn't follow you to clinic but i asked for forgiveness and you forgave me that time. I even promised that I won't make you disappointed and sad because of that again. Now, you can just tell me you can't remember that you actually forgiven me and given me a chance. You intend to eat back your own words?
Before I met you, I never even walk out from the doorsteps of my room, do you know that? It was so hard for me to change yet i was able to change because love motivated me to do so. Now, as I already adapted to this kind of lifestyle, you expect me to go back to where I belong?
For a normal guy, I would have already found a new girl by now because what you said and did is more than enough to kill a guy's heart. But I didn't, instead I am willing to wait for you till the end of days and hope that you will realize I'm not the guy you think I am. I am forever loyal and willing to change just for our future.
Do you think it's stupid or foolish of me to be so naive?
One way or another, I still kept my vows to you that i will marry you and provide you the life you wanted most and I really meant it.
The vows you made, I recorded it, saved it and remembered it and you told me you can't remember any of them.
We were destined to be together if not it's for your doubts against me.
All these sufferings were all caused by your decisions.
Don't ask god for guidance please. You should first ask yourself and think about what you done rationally.
Are you truly happy with that? Is it worth doing this to yourself? Do you think your doing the right thing?
Do you think that the next bf of yours will really give you what you want or just end up like what you did to me at the end. How can you assure such confidence in you without doubts and regrets of your past actions?
I really hope you will truly understand what is right and what is wrong and make better decisions that will lead you to a better future. It's all up to you now. No one can help you with this other than yourself.
You clearly know me more than your other friends, so you should have known that i can keep my words well.
I said I will never dump you and will love you forever means I will never dump you and will love you forever. I can keep my vows forever. Whether you believe it or not, it's all up to you again.
I will never change what I already mentioned, not like you.
I really hope one day you will realize your mistakes.
If you do, I will forgive you at anytime because everyone makes mistakes and deserve a second chance no matter who or what he/she is.
I never have a blog before.
The reason why I have it now was because of you again.
I wish that you would really look back on your past actions and create a better solution for it.
That was the reason I have this blog now.
Please do not make the same mistake twice.
My advice is,
Do not continue what you are doing currently in an ongoing trend.
As you will have your day of retribution in years to come.
I love you La***...
Everything I sacrifice for you.
What for?
It's because I love you.
Why are willing to destroy the sweet memories we had together just in few days?
For the past 3 months, our love became so much deeper.
Not only that, we miss each other even more than before.
Now?
Just a couple of days you could say you forgotten everything about us?
You don't have anymore feelings towards me?
You also mentioned could we be friends again.
But seriously, are you really treating me as a friend or an enemy I wonder.
Do you actually understand what were my feelings when you said something like this?
Well, tell u one thing.
Do you still remember the last time I joked with you mentioning that i wanted to leave you?
Do you remember what was your emotions at that moment?
Right before I could tell you I was just joking, you instantly ran back to your room and cried till there is no tomorrow.
If I do not confess that I was just joking, you would thought I really meant it.
What really broke my heart was, you saying I looked like so called idiot and not even worthy to be your friend.
You know something.
I don't cry just to anyone and basically I never cried for ages.
Additionally, I never cried just for someone before.
You told me before that if I cried for you means I love you very much and you were so happy and glad that I'm so loyal to you. That was where our relationship began to flourish.
Now?
When I cried for you, I'm just a piece of shit to you right?
Or
Just a mentally retarded adult who has a mind of a kid who likes to cry like a baby?
Is that what you mean now?
Then what about you when you cried?
When you needed me the most I always try my best to be with you and console you whenever you are moody, sad and hurt.
When I needed you the most, where are you?
You left me, that's what it is.
You even said if I die, nobody will ever bother about it cause your not worth loving.
So, I'm just a piece of "shit" that even a dung beetle won't be attracted to?
I wonder do you treat me as a person or just a piece of "shit".
How can you be so cruel all the sudden?
Why do you want to dump our love away?
Why do you want to destroy our opportunity to live together in the future where it is only a matter of steps only.
Why do you want to act in front of me? Do you think that I don't know your acting in front of me?
What's your purpose?
What's your motive?
Are you helping me?
Are you hurting me?
Or is it someone else fell in love with you, wanted to erase your memories forcefully so that both of you could live and love each other happily ever after without doubts?
If you could really erase all our memories together, so what?
Is that true love?
What about me?
You don't need to care about other's feelings as well?
Do you think it's a selfish act?
Do you think that what you do is right?
Do you believe that god will close one eye and act as if nothing had happened, like you?
You always mention you understand and know what is love.
For me, I clearly doubt so.
When we became couples, I never had the intention on leaving you or seducing new girls like what most guys would do. I never even want to talk to people to don't like me to talk to. I was willing to change my lifestyle from hermit just to suit your lifestyle in the future. I stayed with you 24/7 in the room because I want to take care of you, don't want you to be lonely, work with you and love you. I know I did something wrong to you sometimes. But, I asked for your forgiveness and willing to change it because we learn from our mistakes so that in the future we won't repeat it again. I know it's my bad because I didn't follow you to clinic but i asked for forgiveness and you forgave me that time. I even promised that I won't make you disappointed and sad because of that again. Now, you can just tell me you can't remember that you actually forgiven me and given me a chance. You intend to eat back your own words?
Before I met you, I never even walk out from the doorsteps of my room, do you know that? It was so hard for me to change yet i was able to change because love motivated me to do so. Now, as I already adapted to this kind of lifestyle, you expect me to go back to where I belong?
For a normal guy, I would have already found a new girl by now because what you said and did is more than enough to kill a guy's heart. But I didn't, instead I am willing to wait for you till the end of days and hope that you will realize I'm not the guy you think I am. I am forever loyal and willing to change just for our future.
Do you think it's stupid or foolish of me to be so naive?
One way or another, I still kept my vows to you that i will marry you and provide you the life you wanted most and I really meant it.
The vows you made, I recorded it, saved it and remembered it and you told me you can't remember any of them.
We were destined to be together if not it's for your doubts against me.
All these sufferings were all caused by your decisions.
Don't ask god for guidance please. You should first ask yourself and think about what you done rationally.
Are you truly happy with that? Is it worth doing this to yourself? Do you think your doing the right thing?
Do you think that the next bf of yours will really give you what you want or just end up like what you did to me at the end. How can you assure such confidence in you without doubts and regrets of your past actions?
I really hope you will truly understand what is right and what is wrong and make better decisions that will lead you to a better future. It's all up to you now. No one can help you with this other than yourself.
You clearly know me more than your other friends, so you should have known that i can keep my words well.
I said I will never dump you and will love you forever means I will never dump you and will love you forever. I can keep my vows forever. Whether you believe it or not, it's all up to you again.
I will never change what I already mentioned, not like you.
I really hope one day you will realize your mistakes.
If you do, I will forgive you at anytime because everyone makes mistakes and deserve a second chance no matter who or what he/she is.
I never have a blog before.
The reason why I have it now was because of you again.
I wish that you would really look back on your past actions and create a better solution for it.
That was the reason I have this blog now.
Please do not make the same mistake twice.
My advice is,
Do not continue what you are doing currently in an ongoing trend.
As you will have your day of retribution in years to come.
I love you La***...
everything will be fine =)
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