Who's The Toy?

The contents of this post was taken from the previous post(Trust & Compromise). This is the re-edited version of it.

P/S : The original version was deleted from the previous post.

(Below were my frustrations after I posted the "Trust & Compromise" entry, so if you don't want to read it, you can stop right at this point)

I'm surprise that many realized about this two factors but why not you.

You don't understand is not because you're stupid or you're dumb, it's because you simply do not take the initiative to understand and reflect on it. That why you're so damn ignorant and naive which led to selfishness.

You think this is some sort of a game? When you want, you dash forward at maximum speed and grab it, when you're done or bored with it, you just throw it away? As long as it pleases your heart's content? Not forgetting you added plenty of crappy lame excuses when being asked why too.

I just realized that I'm actually a toy.

Why are you willing to throw it just like that?

Because I'm already broken or scarred with scratches?

I know why!!!

(The words italic and bold below, has hidden meanings. If you can guess the meaning then congrats.)

You got your "insurance" set and ready.

Also, you got a lot "financial supports" because of "sponsors" around you.

In other words, you don't lose anything.

So no wonder you don't even care whether I live or die.

I really want to know one more thing,

"I don't care, I can't care too much, whatever!!"

Is that your favorite phrase?

In the end,

I am as if a toy being thrown into the dumpster.

It depends on whether somebody else pick it up to play with it(live) or I end up being degraded and recycled for raw materials(die).

Actually, I do not want to talk about this again but the problem is, all these stuffs are just shoving right at my face. Don't expect I can act like nothing happen.
Nevertheless, the things happening around me just reminds me about you over and over again.