Tuesday, July 7, 2009

Chances...

People said I am handsome. ( This is what people said and I 'm not boasting or whatever and if you want to laugh then go ahead. I'm not stopping you.)

I denied because I don't see any handsomeness in me at all.

Maybe there were just trying to cheer me up or praise me I don't know.

People also said I got a pretty heart.

But I said don't know because only others can see whether it's pretty or not.

Just like you cannot smell your own pheromone but others can.

No matter how pretty you're externally or internally, it's useless sometimes.

WHY?

If you are not given a chance in anything, you're still a piece of shit.

Because you basically can't do anything at all.

You're just like a crippled and frail old man who can't even move any limbs eventhough you have endless efforts in attempting to move them. Because the limbs are just dead, they are not influenced by the brain anymore.

WHY?

For example, you like to study and you got talent to study.

But your family is too poor to afford any further education.

But your lust for education dominated your self-control.

One day, you noticed your friend is also studying at one Uni you wanted to study in.

So you just attend classes from that day onwards.

Lecturers asked you, who are you? Why are you here?

You explained how much you love study, although the lecturers were touched by your words and willing to give you the chance to study here, still you can't.

WHY?

There are not the ones who determine whether you can study here or not.

It is the university who decides.

The university does not allow you to study here as you are not registered here.

Eventhough others give you chances but once the Uni said you are not eligible, you're gone.

Eventhough you can still continue to secretly study here but it's pointless because you can't take the final examination.

This is only wasting all your precious time just to temporary satisfy your so called lust.

In conclusion, it's pointless when you're not given a chance eventhough you are a genius.

So in reality, no matter how pretty you are externally and internally, if people do not appreciate who you are, you are just nothing in society.

Nothing in the sense that whatever you're trying to attempt, it will just end up with uncountable disappointments.

Another example, if you want to murder someone, you need to plan where to attempt.

If the victim found out that someone is trying to kill him/her from an unknown source, he/she will avoid from that targeted area.

In conclusion, the victim does not give the murderer any chances of attempts therefore, the murderer failed eventhough the murderer had put in weeks of effort to plan this attempt.

Everything is basically influenced by chances, just that we don't see it directly.

For me, I laid in so much hard efforts to change what I am for the greater good, for us and others.

For what?

But it ended pointless once again because I was not given the chance to prove so.

WHY?

Because the one that motivated me to change doesn't want to appreciate what I can do in the future.

Just some influences from open world and just by judging my past, they put a fullstop on me because they claimed I will never change. Worse is that they claimed they know me as much as my own parents know me.

Moreover,

My chances were rejected and denied, eventhough they have already been given.

Based on neutrality, do you think it's a righteous judgment?


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